Sunday 15 May 2011

ma fault!

cmlm gi ayr tj0n emg bezt. rmai yg j0in.nak wish tankz t0 all ma FWEN c0z planning ny akhirnye mnjdi gak. wlaup0wn ktew pgi late ckit but ttap mnjdi kn? smlm half2 jee an nak pgi kee x. asl b0leyh jee an redah cmue ny. hee. :)

tankz to0 ma dad c0z m'ngizinkn adex pegi n mmberi kpercyaan kpde adex. adex taw cbnrnye abah x mo0 adex pgi kn. abah tk0wt adex knpe2 kn? n tk0wt adex wat bkn2 kn? d0nt w0rry bah co0z kat ane adex pgi adex slalu ngat cmue psan abah n ibu. 1st time abah lpaz kn adex pgi watr fall ni an? huh. clalu nye law pegi mzty nan pmilie jee. TANKZ SO0 MUCH ABAH IBU.

n x lpe gak at kakak. tankz kak co0z pgi anta n amex adex. wl0up0n akq pnat but akq ttap lyn adex an. pdhal akq bwu alex kje an. c0wey k bnyq cngt ssah kn akak. akq n ibu jee an yg clalu than prgai adex. TANKZ SO0 MUCH N I L0VE UNTIL I DIED. 

to0 ma l0vely buddy'z. awak tankz c0z nak j0in plan cye k. awq dtg late an. mse cye dah cmpai awq bwu nak grak. mse cye ngah andy awq c0l cye, awq kate adee r0bl0ck. paz awq kap cm to0 mke cye tr0z b'ubh. kwan2 cye cbe wat cye hepy. mse t0o cye dah pt0z ase n pki awq x kn dtg. time to0 cye eg0 cngt, cye pkse awq dtg an. but dlam time to0 gak. cye mnglah. cye x pkse awq dtg time to0. wl0up0wn cye andy n glax2 nan mmbw cye but dlam aty n 0tx cye ny pki keadaan awq. dlam stngah jam kmdian awq c0l cye, awq kap awq 0tw dtg. cye po0wn hepy n m'nggu khdran awq. mse awq dtg, ktew x teg0 po0wn an cm x knal jeee. ane tak nye, awq dtg2 awq b'bual nan mmbw awq paz to0 awq tr0z nek atz an. pndg cye po0wn x kn.but mse at swimming cye m'nglah n cye teg0 awq. bwu awq wo0keyh nan cye. hurm. paz alex to0, ktew jmpe jap at umah mmbw cye. awq teg0 cye cmething but cye x leyh trime. mse to0 cye dah pki bkn2 dah. dlam 0tx cye dah mn'crut ny. awq dah nak alex an but awq rele ptah alex jmpe cye. dah laa awq dtg pnat2, pazto0 awq alex dgn k'kcwaan krne skap cye yg eg0 n selfish ny kn? sye tacink nan awq. cye mcj awq cmpai cw0h awq lpazkn cye kn. awq mle ssah aty nan cmue ny. midnight jee awq col cye n awq adee bgtaw cmething yg mm'bwat an cye rse sdih c'cngt n b'salh cngt. upenye awq late cmpai c0z awq jln kaky sja0h 3 km nak ke ayr tj0n n 1 jam awq b'jln kaky, to0 cmue awq wat co0z awq x nak hmpe kn cye. o.M.G. awq npe awq sng0p wat cmue to0? awq an ja0h to0? cmpai tumit kaky awq ckit2 an jln kaky. ny cmue cbb cye kn. tr0k nye cye wat awq. to0 po0wn cye still x p'cye kn awq. cye still tud0 awq mcm2 kn. cye asik pki burux jee an at awq. pdhal at umah akq awq adee wat bfday party anq sdre awq yg pling awq cyg but awq tngglkn n awq luang an mse untx cye. YA ALLAH. cmpai cm to0 pntg nye cye at awq! cye ny emg selfish an. dah laa awq krban an cmue ny untx cye but cye ttap wat awq kcewe kn. cye lngs0ng x pki prsaan awq. cye lngs0ng x pki p'ng0rbnan awq. cye emg pmpuan yg x taw d'untg. cye slalu wat awq sdih. npe awq still plih cye? npe awq x nak tnggl kn cye? npe awq x nak menkn prsaan cye? npe awq x  nak b'dndam nan cye? awq, cye bkn yg t'bek untk awq. cye asik m'nysahkn awq jee an. 
awq, cye nak mntx maap. cmue ny emg slah cye. dnde laa cye, hkum laa cye? awq x yh wat bex nan pmpuan cm cye ni. im so0 bad, selfish, eg0 n 0ther. 

p/s : t0 all yg bce ny, h0pe k0wng jgn jdik cm aq k. wat laa ny cbgai p'ngjran at k0wng k.